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Got that
f*cking B-ITCH! Monday, 21
December 2009 B = BUSUK! B = BRENGSEK! B = BAJBAJBAJ! WTH! Never thought that they really gave me B for
my last project! i supposed to get an A or A+! Not B! No way! This is just NOT
FAIR. God damn it. i did all the homeworks by myself. all that stupid
autocad, 3dmax, photoshop, and model building,, got not enough sleep and hurt
my fingers with cutter accidentally, got stomach ache and so on,, and only got
that fucking B! What about my friends? Paid some guys to finish the max and
photoshop and spent million rupiahs to build their model, have a
good-night-sleep and enjoying life,, and thanks god, they got A. How fair is
THAT?? for GOD shake!! BTC said, “shopping is cheaper than a
psychiatric…” so,, i went to Kings
with Zita,,
and try to forget this horrible day. It was brilliant first,, and then one of
my judge from the last presentation texted me. she said so sorry about the
score i’ve got,, blah-blah-blah,, eh… what ever. what’s the big deal? you still
can’t change the score anyway. don’t need any of your attention. save your pity
to someone else. just. zip it. but still… i just wanna run to ladies room and
cry a lot more. and another judge from the last presentation? i wanna
put some bombs in his bags. that’ll be good, rite? eh… not literally,, but that
thought has crossed my mind. Look at the good side Prisc… i can measure my
ability now and knew that i AM stronger than i’ve ever thought—i can do all the
homeworks : autocad, 3dmax, photoshop, and building model all by myself—(i think i
can join urbane or some top design architect biros like that),, i don’t need to
spend more money for this damid SAA,, i don’t need to be there where the boring
explanation about the awards will held,, i don’t need just to wasting my time
on this fucking SAA,, etc,, etc… hell! i need THAT score to dead! if there is God… She really gave me a lesson here…
that life really IS suck. Life is not THAT fair. “expect the best, work it out and
you’ll get it”? Nah… that’s just a rotten theory. do NOT believe it or even do
NOT do it. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK. jahanam. Sorry if u read this. i really need to shout these craps out or i’ll go nuts.
Lately,, this book is really influence me.
i know now… there are people around me who can destroy my dreams, and people who always support me to make my dreams come true. Ok, so gw mengakui klo gw ga besar di keluarga yg benar2 ngedukung gw apa adanya. gw ga tumbuh di keluarga yang mengakui prestasi2 gw,, yg memuji atau bahkan mengenang prestasi2 gw,, seolah2 gw hanyalah anak normal yg biasa2 aja. well,, smua orang tentuny harus mengakui klo mereka itu unik,, dan pengakuan ternyata memiliki efek yang luar biasa.
Ga bisa disangkal juga,, tanpa adanya pengakuan,, bisa saja membuat orang tersebut bekerja lebih keras lagi untuk terus mengusahakan sebuah pengakuan,, dan yang terutama dan yang terbesar tentunya dari orang tua dan keluarga dan kerabat. That’s me.
Buku Subconscious Mind In Action (by Lynn Pierce), mengajarkan betapa pentingnya mencapai tujuan-tujuan hidup,, sesuai dengan apa yang kita sendiri pikirkan. Bukan seperti apa yang diharapkan orang lain,, bukan juga tanpa tujuan.
So, here i am. Mencoba menuliskan apa tujuan-tujuan hidup teratas yang lately baru gw sadari.
1. Be a Rocker [well,, gw sih mengharapkan bisa single. tapi klo untuk mencapainya gw harus jadi vokalis rock band,, why not?]
2. Write so many books,, and be the next Stephanie Meyer or Tolkien or JK Rowling
3. Open bussiness like, club, café, clothing line and hotel
Next, gw akan menuliskan visi gw ke depan
1. Next year : have so many concerts with my band in different places or cities; meet my soulmate eventually; meet someone who will record my voice and songs and people starts to recognize my name
2. 5 years later : already married with my husband, have a baby boy named Austin. Still a rocker and start to go international. open my café and clothing line.
3. 10 years later : still with my husband, Austin is now 5yrs old, and have a twin baby named Bernadette and Rosario, 3yrs old. An international rocker now and there are people starts to make a movie based on my books. Open my hotel and club, and still rolls my café and clothing line
4. 20 years later : still with my husband and three children. A legendary rocker now, and still writing songs for people. People around the world buy my books and watch my movie. and still rolls my hotel, club, café, and clothing line.
5. 50 years later : a happy grandma. a living legend. still writing songs for people and watch over and over my movie. Menikmati sisa hidup.
Makin Bosan,, =.=!!
Senin, 16 November 2009
Sumpe,, makin bosen ngejalaninny! haizz… =.=!! Tinggal 1 smstr ini koq perjuanganny setengah idup yakh? Pengen nyanyiii..............! Pengen nyanyi bangeeeed!! Jiwa ini mengerang-erang! Pengeeeennn!
by the way,, that KLA nominee,, gw kalah bowl :D That’s ok,, gw tau yg bakal menangin nominasi ini adalah yg terbaik, right? So,, i’m totally FINE.
Bosan SAA,, pengen nyanyi!
Anyhoo,, gw baru donlot Taylor Swift – Love Story yg versi karaoke-POP! HA! Senang,, :D
Ayo nyanyi!!
Ngobrol2,, udah lama jg gw ga nge-blog yakh? Hwmm,, hidup ini sedang dirumitkan oleh perencanaan masa depan! HA! Robert B Oxnam (Robbey) bilang,, KESUKSESAN hanyalah masalah perencanaan dan kerja keras. So,, bergejolaklah otak gw bbrp mgg terakhir ini,, banyak hal yg gw suka terjadi di hidup gw,, dan lebih banyak lagi hal2 yg lebih gw suka ingin gw jadikan di hidup gw mendatang. AIHH,,
Ay,, ay,, ay,, ngomongin masa depan bisa mumet...
Masih ada SAA yg harus segera dibabat habis nih! BERJUANG!! SUKSESKAN MASA DEPAN NAK!!!
ini om Robbey :D --------------->>
otak gw dah jarang bgt dipake sejak masuk kul ini,, yg ada gw malah ngembangin otak gw utk berkhayal dan melahirkan karya2 seni kebanggan gw—lagu2, pusi, novel,, dan yg jelas adalah : DESAIN! Udah ampir ga ada tuh yg namany menghapal… dan jgn harap MENGHITUNG! HA!
yg ada,, gw udah kesulitan menghitung kembalian tiap kali belanja. Jgn salah ya,, bahkan kemampuan menghitung gw dg mang angkot pun kalah! Buset kann??? PLUS,, ingatan gw yg makin jangka pendek. OH NO! Gw ga mau jadi bodoh!
THAT’s WHY,, hr ini akhirny gw memutuskan untuk mendonlot CHESS GAME!
Finally…
My editor called me this noon, so officially, I’ve been choosen as a nominee in ‘Khatulistiwa Literary Award 2009’ for category : ‘talented young writer’. i’m with another 8 nominees will be there in Plaza Senayan, Jakarta, on 9 or maybe 10 November for that BIG moment!
Need more more lucks…
Pertama kali dlm idup,, gw ada dlm sebuah nominasi resmi
suatu acara besar. WOAH! What a LIFE I’ve GOT here!!! Gw tu bikin novel 3L tu cm sekedar iseng,, nyalurin hobi +
talenta yg Tuhan percayakan pada gw + gw pikir,, sblm gw mati ntar gw harus
meninggalkan sesuatu utk anak cucu gw,, dan hal termudah yg bisa gw lakukan
sblm gw menginjak umur 20 adalah : bwt novel,, krn buku bisa berumur cukup lama
jg. Ya ga bakal nyangka lah klo ternyata kmaren gw masuk nominasi 8 besar
Khatulistiwa Literaly Award 2009,, yg pdhl gw cm lagi iseng2 nge-gugel nama gw
doank. Speechless abiz dah. Pengen lompat2,, wlo baru dpt nominasi
doank… but this is the FIRST time in my LIFE! WOW! Agak disesalkan krn gw ga dpt pemberitahuan apa pun dr pihak
panitia Award maupun pihak penerbit gw. klo gw ga iseng2 nge-gugel nama gw,, gw
kaga tau apa2 dunk L ya Tuhan,, terima kasih banyak…
ada di dlm nominasi aja gw udah ga tau musti ngapain. Ga pengen
pengumuman dunia dulu sih yg jelas,, tp bnr2 dah,, rasanya HU-HA-HI-HA-HA!! WISH ME LUCK……………!
Sumpe,, masi inget earthquake 2 Sept itu kan? becanda de. Pertama kali ngalamin yg namanya gempa. Wuih... berguncang BO! Bukan cm guncangan doank yg gw rasain, uda termasuk ngos2an lari dari senpus lante 2 sampe ke bwh,, plus deg2an n kaki pun bergetar,, juga parno yg kagak bakal ada ilangny.
N ternyata,, masi lebih banyak lagi gempa di bumi pertiwi qt. Ya padang lah, medan lah, pontianak lah, dan trus-trus-trus serasa kagak brenti. Yg baruuuu aja sore tadi tu di ujung kulon. Wlo ga ngaruh jg ke bandung,, tp cenah2 bisa ngaktipin gempa bwt di jabar,, dg skala 8.1 khususny kota qt tercinta : BANDUNG.
Gmn ga ngeriii?
Gmn dunk dunk dunk? SAA gw? Harta benda gw? Nyawa gw? [Well, klo gempany terjadi 24 april 27 gw masi berpikiran sama ga ya??] Gmn keluarga & sodara2 & tmn2 tercinta? Gimana? GimaNAA!
Parno abiz. Ga tau gmn ngilanginny. Sumpe. Sumpesumpesumpe. Buset dah.
Biasany saat gw berdoa 2 mcm doa ANDALAN gw slama ini yg SELALU manjur,, ‘Novena Kepada Hati Kudus Yesus’ dan ‘Novena kepada Bunda Maria dari Lourdes’,, tu pada hari ke-7 ato pas hari ke-9 doa gw terkabul. Well,, itulah yg emank slalu gw inginkan, kan?
Tp skarang beda dari yg beda, man. Wkt gw jalanin 2 doa ini sambil nangis memohon-mohon dan mengais-ngais pertolongan tiap mlm jam 11pm,, yg ada gw mulai ngitung : oke, ini hari ke-7. Oke, tinggal 1 hari lagi. Oke, this is it today! BUT,, kaga terjadi apa2 man.
Stlh itu tiap mlm gw habiskan dg doa ala sekadarny dan ogah2an dan merasa dianaktirikan oleh Yang gw anggap Segala2ny. Well,, gw cm manusia biasa yg ga tahan godaan. Gw cm manusia biasa dg juta2an permohonan ini dan itu dan anu. Gw cm manusia yg… aaaaaarrrrghhhhhhh!!!! Apa salah gw!!
H+3 stlh mlm2 gw habiskan untuk menangis & mengasihani diri gw sndiri,, akhirny gw dpt jawaban jg mlm ini. Lucunya adalah,, saat gw beranggapan “jangan2 bakal ada pangeran jatoh dari langit?” yg ada adalah sebaris ayat dari Alkitab yg gw baca tiap mlm.
ROM 12:12 rejoicing in
hope; patient in tribulation; continuing stedfastly in prayer; ROM 12:12 bersukacitalah
dalam pengharapan, sabarlah dalam kesesakan, dan bertekunlah dalam doa! Which means,, lu harus lebi kuat prissss! What doesn’t kill u can only
makes u stronger, right?
I need someone where I can hold his hand under the table and let nobody knows…
I need someone who can play toys with me while the teacher is teaching something in the middle of class…
I missed that day when friends are jealous with us and we just acted like “what ever”…
I missed that day when we were looking in the eyes, holding hands, and then laughing about everything…
I want to get back to that old days…
I want YOU and there are so much things I wanna tell you.
Huwaa……
Uda segede ini masi aja jatoh.. .terperosok & terjerembab di sela2 besi yg menutup selokan. Halah.... cape de... =.=” kaki lecet2,, nyut2an... susah bwt digerak2in,, ga bebas bikin maket. Ae dah... aya2 wae....
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